i am a mountain

there is a mountain 

i face every day

fog covers its peak 

i'll never get there, i think 

i put my head down 

trudging alone 

without a map

an old idea somewhere tells me that

if i push hard enough 

move fast enough 

hold my breath long enough

talk to myself loud enough

i'll get closer

never. enough.
i let those words flip and float in my mind

they are a mural of infinite dots 

an unformed image i can’t see

but keep telling myself should form a whole  

instead of pushing 

to see the whole image 

to reach the mountain peak

why not see myself as the full mountain, the whole image?

try that. 

I am whole 

I am the mountain

I move from this place

N A T A L I E